These are my Goals

This year will be MY year...

I WILL be a healthier and possibly leaner version of me!

I WILL look after my appearance more.

I WILL find security for my finances and mental health.

And the most important...

I WILL finally get custody of my daughter rubber stamped.

To do these things i need to do:

Health:

• Eat a balanced and healthy diet (yest i call it a diet - i no longer see diet as a dirty word.)
• Exercise 3+ days a week (I've signed up to a Gym/pool but it doesn't open till July)
• Drink 2-3ltrs of water a day.

Appearance:

• I am getting laser treatment because i can grow a full beard if i let it grow (yes its a patchy teenage porno beard but that's not the point)
• Getting my teeth cleaned every 6 months (hurts more then a filling and i get those without anesthetic if they are small so i have a high pain tolerance)
• Going to wash my pimple prone skin and exfoliate properly (not once every blue moon when Venus is in Saturn's shadow like i currently do) Yes i know i don't girly well.
• Grow out my hair (yes it looks long enough in the photo but I've always wanted bum length hair and I've always dyed it and wreaked my hair (18 months ago i got it cut as short as possible to cut off the damaged hair from a bleach job gone wrong from a woman who had no clue)

 Finances:

• Mainly just not buy sooo much crap that i don't need 
• Sell off clothes that still have their price tag on that I've never and will probable never wear.
• Pay off credit card that i should never have gotten 
• Find out my credit score thingie and find out how to make it neutral if not positive. 

Mental health:

• I will be regularly writing on here to keep focus on my goals
• keep house better (better environment means better health)
• Work on sleep and relaxation
• Take baths, spend time with friends and do all those little things i never have time for.
• Have breaks from my child to recharge and work on being a better mum

Custody:

• Write parenting plan
• Meet with my lawyers to make sure i am asking/ doing the right things
• Wait and see what my ex wants and try to find a happy compromise.

I think that is a lot of things to do but at the same time many are either small or out of my control at the end of the day I've got to try to do my best and hopefully it's enough to get a outcome that works for everyone.

Cheers

Skye

This was me and this is where i am at...

So this was me the first week of this year...

25 years old

weight: 140kgs

Height: 173cm

Size 18/20 top 22/24 pants


Waist: 125cm

Hips: 148cm

For the first 11 weeks of this year i worked hard and fell of the wagon hard at times but i managed to lose 10kgs in 11 weeks through counting calories, limiting processed foods and a few different exercise programs. 

Then...

I fell off the wagon totally - i hurt my foot while exercising, i didn't care what i put into my body and i stressed, didn't sleep and binge ate.

Now its week 18 of 2015 (i think) and i had (when i weighed myself on Monday) put back on 3.5kgs. I was going to just try to maintain while i got through the stressful time i was having and a little weight gain is fine (everyone fluctuates) and i believe i do by about 2kgs but a extra 3.5kgs was heading towards putting it ALL back on so from Monday i cut processed carbs back out of my diet, worked on eating breakfast again and decided to try for a 1,800 cals a day diet (previous was 1,400 cals a day) and trying to do at least my 10,000 steps a day.

As of this morning when i weighted myself i now weigh 131.6kgs !!! YAY its working.

I know that by eating better i will improve everything about my life and i don't believe in starving myself so in the next few weeks i need to teach myself better habits and food prep skills.

So that was me and the new me is under construction (see goals post)

Cheers

Skye

From the start...

Hi,

I'm Skye and i have no idea what i am doing...

I have pretty much winged it to this point in life.

I am:

 A stay at home mum of 1 gorgeous little girl 

Partnered to the most kind and patient man on the planet

A craft addict

25 years old

and this year is MY year

I promised myself that this year i would face my problems

I am also:

Over weight

Stressed out

Have high anxiety

and for the first time in my life i am battling Depression.

Many people who know me (which no one who sees this should) think that i have good reasons for being the above.

In the past few years i have supported my little girl while she battled chronic illness and underwent a transplant to reset her immune system, separated from my daughters father (a emotionally and sometimes physically abusive relationship), had a few other short unhealthy relationships, trying to get my daughter to a level where she can go to school like other kids and now that life is starting to look normal i am going through custody proceedings with my ex who due to mental illness isn't a healthy role model and anything but a active father.

To be honest i have blocked out much of what has happened to my daughter and due to having to dig up what my ex put me through (much of that i had blocked out too) i can't remember much good (which there was).

Now i just want to be happy and healthy and put the past behind me.

I'm starting this so i can try to do that.

Cheers

Skye